Change Is the Only Forever

I have never been one that like to wait around, do nothing and stay in one place. Always after a month or two I would get restless and need to go somewhere new, experience a new adventure. So this idea of being able to leave behind that feeling of being stuck was a no brainer for me. My older brother who I am close with would also be leaving for college and the idea of staying in our house without him was not a prospect I liked. For all 16 years of my life I have lived in the same town, in the same house, whenever I left I always had my same room and bed to come back to. I didn't realize how much I loved having that place to come back to until it was gone. For the past few months we have been packing up our house, my room usually filled with clutter, my clutter, now consists only of a bed. The walls and cabinets are bare as they have started to paint and set the house to sell. I typically don't spend that much time at home, when school is in session I spend anytime outside of school doing theater, sports, volunteering, or any extra curricular that will take up my time. During the summer we are traveling and only home for a week or two. However, when Covid-19 hit, that busyness was gone. I couldn't do any of the activities that had taken my time and taken me away from home. In a way it was a good thing, being forced to stay home and pack, as I don't know how else it would have gotten done. Packing up was harder than I thought it would be. Seeing all the things that make my room something I love packed into boxes, pretty much watching my whole childhood packed away was difficult. I'm going to miss that house and all that it means to me. It became harder knowing that I will have a shorter time to be able to say goodbye to my friends before leaving only to visit once or twice a year. However, I know this is the right decision for me, there's a part of me that needs to see more and gain knowledge of different cultures, societies and people. I love how unique each person is and how unalike yet the same everything is. I want to be able to meet new people and engage in culture that I am not used to, I want to be taken out of comfort zone because that is where learning happens. 

Currently, for the month of May I will be living away from home in a small house in Oregon. We had to be out of the house in order for the house to be painted and shown to potential buyers. The place is absolutely gorgeous, on our porch we have a direct view of the ocean which is a two minute walk away. From the other side of the house we have a view of the forest and big beautiful trees that are filled with wildlife. This is honestly my favorite scenery and has given me a taste for what I want my future home to look like, once I'm ready to have a home base again. 

No matter what change is going to happen, it is the one thing in life that is consistent. Coronavirus has shown us that, causing the whole world to experience some type of shutdown in order to protect its citizens. The change in schools moving online, something that is only made possible with modern technology. I am about to undergo the biggest change of my life and it is absolutely leaving me terrified, but that is a fear I am ready and excited to embrace.